I think the hamster is finally down for a nap. I tried meditating in my bedroom this evening, rather than my living room. And earlier than last night. One of my hamster thoughts is that my kids or my husband will interrupt me. And, I ask myself, so what if they do? It's not that I'm worried about being irritated, I think I feel... embarrassed. Not quite comfortable in my meditative skin I suppose, or confident enough to request the space.
My room was quiet and I tool comfort in the lock on my door. I had a good 3 or 4 breaths that felt like heaven tonight. That I wasn't in charge of the in and out breaths, that me and the breath were just melting together. Nothing felt forced or awkward. I found that the breath/not breath noting helped me for about half the time, until it became sort of a backdrop for my thoughts.
Tomorrow I'm going to try an early morning meditation to see how that feels.
I have a special request too. I have a dear friend, Rachel, who is in the hospital. She's facing a scary time and if you think of it in your next lovingkindess meditation, could you send Rachel some energy?