Today I did the Core Meditation again (track #2 on the Real Happiness CD). The funny thing about finding the breath is that it is so ephemeral. My thoughts today were coming gently and not too jarring -- i.e. they were not thoughts that created any intense emotional response. Perhaps the equation for emotion is the following: Thoughts + Attention --> Emotion.
I noticed how easily my mind likes to go to planning pleasant future events. My observations of this process were the following: I remained focus on my breath for a couple of moments, and then started thinking about something fun that was coming up this weekend. I noticed that I was not focused on my breath. Lastly, I found my breath. (rinse and repeat)
The odd thing about “finding” ones breath is that it is nowhere to be found, it is simply there -- minding its own business and doing its job. I believe that my breath strongly correlates to my emotions. For example, if I am angry, my breaths are quicker and sharper. I am sure in the next 28 days, some thoughts will create emotions of anger, which will then create sharper breathing. If and when this occurs, and I am able to find my breath -- will it be a multiplier effect? Will the following ensue: Angry Thoughts --> Angry Emotions --> Sharper Breathing --> Angry Thoughts...? Or, will simply focusing on the breath -- even if it is sharper -- allow me to get unstuck from the thoughts and emotions?