Today, my usual default places during my meditation- to do lists, where to go on my next
vacation, what's for lunch, etc.-gave way to more abstract considerations: if I'm thinking
about not thinking, and trying to not think, am I still thinking? Is there a way to not think
that's more effortless?
I have had "flow" experiences in my life: doing certain sports; during my one and only
pastel workshop; sometimes at work when my less-than-conscious mind is guiding me
on how to proceed through a difficult situation; and during a rare moment in my yoga
practice. But in this place where I'm consciously working toward that goal of effortless
not-thinking--- meditation--- I have yet to hit my stride, even for a moment. I assume it will come, with practice.