I often like to say that I am an "extroverted introvert" and my husband is an "introverted extrovert." I am really great at talking to strangers and I love connecting with people at the post office, grocery store, parks, restaurants, well you get it public places. But, I love, love being alone or just connecting with one friend at a time. Most of time if we are invited to a party my husband wants to go but I rather stay at home.
Today after sitting I realized that it's not so much that I am a secret introvert it's that my "friendliness" is exhausting for me. I think somehow I feel responsible for everyone else's good time. I value my friendliness quality so I don't want to wish it away but I do want to investigate how it is affecting me and it's effectiveness in connecting with others.
Wow, thank you guys for being out there! I have a 22 month old little boy and we don't always have structure through our day. Meditating at the same time every day is probably too much to ask so I have a loose plan of sitting at night once he has gone to bed. Yesterday and today I was so eager to join you all that I was able to find windows of time do it earlier. Who knew how exciting it could be to look for those moments to be still, to pay attention to my breath, to be truly alone and not alone at all.