I have a meditation teacher who laughs and says there are some days she doesn’t get past counting to 1. Knowing this, I am less concerned about the number. But it is interesting, the idea of the number becoming supreme: ooh, I’m at 5, come on 6 – wait. Damn. In, 1. And going back to 1 is not a punishment, it is alignment, it is a chance to center myself around the breath again.
AND I just had a thought: Why not start at 10 and work down to 1? Because then starting again would feel like punishment for me, I think. The goal is not to get to a number, the goal is to be and to be here, and to be here in this moment.
