Anxiety and Breath

As I practiced today’s body scan, I noticed my breath getting short. I felt a lump in my throat and I couldn’t take a deep breath. This is not an unusual feeling when I meditate (which is why I often use hearing as my anchor rather than the breath). But when Sharon’s voice instructed me to bring my attention to my chest, I felt something new. Intense and fluttering tightness. A hint of pain in my chest, very fleeting, lasting less than a second. A whisper of panic.

What was new, I think, was my openness to feeling this subtle feeling. It just felt different.  I can’t quite put words to it. It felt both deeper and lighter than what I usually experience. More intense and more refined.  It certainly wasn’t pleasant. But it was there and then, as my attention moved down to my abdomen, it wasn’t.

May all beings be happy ♡