Author Archive | sjishuman

I write this final post with a bit of fear.  A bit of fear of saying that I feel proud of myself.  Fear of being judged.  But I say it anyway, because it is my truth right now. I am Read More

Exhausted. Surmounting to do list.  Ear throbbing.  Body gripping.  Eyes dry and tight.  I almost went right to bed. But, I sat down for today’s meditation.  Now I feel all of this; and I feel more.  I feel lighter, more Read More

When I did today’s meditation I was not able to walk.  I decided to just sit and reflect on this past weekend where I walked in very large crowds.  I allowed the flow of memories of specific people and groups Read More

The last couple of meditations have been hard for me.  I feel jumbled up inside and catch myself chasing an answer.  I missed the inquiry and jumped right into trying to get to the bottom of things. How interesting, curiosity Read More

Something new is emerging in my awareness. Thoughts within thoughts.  Patterns within patterns.  So many layers.   I am not able to fully articulate what I am observing, and I’m okay with that.  The feeling has depth and I trust Read More

I got a chance to be with familiar sensations today.  Pressurized head, tight chest, hard eyes; all familiar feelings when I get upset.  There is an undercurrent of thought that anticipates the relief of this. When will it go away? Read More

This week’s focus on my body has brought light to my tendency to breeze over this part of my practice.  It’s not that I have not practiced connecting with my body; it is actually a large part of my daily Read More

Today, as I sat with my food mindfully, listening to Sharon’s guidance, I noticed something.  Something that I had not noticed ever, to my recollection.  I was salivating.  I could feel warmth in my mouth.  I could feel the warm Read More

Today my 5 year old son woke up and came upstairs right before I began today’s meditation.  It was a joy to see him and I didn’t want to ask him to leave and find Dad so I could do Read More

Today was the first day this week that I desired to stay seated and continue to notice breath and not breath.  It was lovely and I see my desire for more sessions to be “this way.”  I loved the softness Read More