It was difficult to remain focused during today’s lovingkindness towards others meditation.
As I directed my attention to the various categories, I could not help but feel an immediate reaction of judgement. I would then wander off on tangents, recalling what I like or dislike about the person I was connecting with.
Admittedly it was hard to keep from cycling through past grievances as I tried to select a ‘mildly irritating’ person. An internal dialogue and checklist would ensue classifying where each person stood on the ‘difficult’ list. As such, I would lose sight of the purpose of the practice. But then, maybe bringing all of those people into my awareness is purposeful enough.