Day 19-Nothing Happened

Today’s meditation was challenging. Of course, my mind kept saying I should be able to do it better. I’m reminded that It’s just a thought, not my thought. My life seems to be about “add-ons”, with many internal comments about every experience that occurs.

I loved what Sharon said and could relate to it on an intellectual level, but I couldn’t feel anything. When she talked about difficult emotions such as anger, I felt nothing. I just kept coming back to the breath. In my daily life, I vacillate between pushing anger away and getting lost in it. I think there are many layers but it’s hard to notice them in meditation. I feel like if I could just begin to notice the different things (emotions, thoughts, sensations) that happen when anger occurs and how much it changes, my life would be transformed.