It wasn’t until starting this practice that I began to realize just how difficult it is for me to maintain my attention on any one thing. It’s like my whole life is just a web browser with 25 tabs open.
Sitting in meditation each day has been an eye opener for me. I’m forced for a very short amount of time to sit still and, man, is it difficult. I’m like a toddler being distracted constantly, but, sadly, unlike the toddler the things that distract me aren’t providing me with any fun or joy. I hope that’s where this is headed — from slowing down to concentration to an opening that allows me to experience joy. I know it’s all around me, I’ve just built up a resistance to it.