Hanging in, even a tiny bit helps

Yesterday turned out to be super-challenging. Suddenly I was in panic, frozen and terrified. Breathe-in, One, Breathe-in, Two … it helped, a little bit. And doggedly putting one foot in front of the other, not giving in to immobilization, helped. Perhaps the panic arose because I was risking myself by presenting something I really care about, to a new audience. And then in the evening I made the presentation. And it was good; the preparation had all been necessary, and was sufficient. Through the hours of panic, all the meditation tools I’ve been adding to my toolkit seemed very far away. Still, doing the simplest thing, breathing, helped, just a little. But maybe that was the crack that let the light in, and even a tiny bit helps.

May all beings be happy ♡