It Sounds So Easy

It is hard to change a lifetime of patterns and yet little by little the change is happening. When I first started meditating, it was pretty easy to connect to the breath and even the body. The emotions were a different story. Patterns had become ingrained over a life time. At one time, those patterns may have served a purpose – it was all i knew to do. If I was angry, i would clench my teeth, because i was taught not to be angry. if i was sad, i would fight back the tears, because “only babies cry”. The list would go on and on for each emotion, negative or positive. over time i developed the ability to discredit all my feelings.

i am learning it is okay to have feelings and express emotion. i now can note a feeling and emotion and, much of the time, i am able to observe and explore without getting caught in the net. i find this process easier with the negative emotions as i don’t want to dwell on  negativity. with the joyful more positive emotions, i can be carried away with the pleasure and want to ride it out because it feels good.

Thanks to practice, little by little the change is happening. Do i do it perfectly? Of course not – after all it is practice and i am learning to be mindful of both the positive and negative. For that i am grateful.

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May all beings be happy ♡