I already can see, just two practices in, this making a difference. It feels like my insides are rearranging themselves.
At a school fundraiser last night, I was offering lovingkindness to people, silently, allowing me to more easily have random conversations with people. Not wanting to just avoid, and, too, not rushing in defensively into a conversation to fill silences. I was oddly at peace.
Today, the day after the fundraiser, as I have doubts come up of whether people liked me or judged me, I am offering myself kindness when that “sting” feeling comes up ( all the time ).
Offering wellness to others who were there and who shared a little of themselves.
There is a pain to this practice, but it feels good at the same time.