When I saw the title of today’s meditation – I didn’t want to do it. I thought to myself – why not a positive one – part 2? However, once I read the pre-meditation material, where it talks about “We can make better, more informed choices, and not be as driven by unexamined habits” and later “By acknowledging a thought or emotion as part of your human repertoire, you can begin to create a healthier relationship to it” helped put my mind at ease. I would be learning ways to bring compassion and kindness to myself versus sitting with a negative emotion with no tools.
When the meditation started I kept thinking of positive experiences, it was as if my mind didn’t want to go to the negative situation. I attempted to focus on a recent experience where I was afraid after hearing my spouse had been hospitalized. I did not enjoy getting back in touch with those emotions, but it was helpful to stay with the emotion and not dramatize it and not to fight with it. While I did the meditation, and then I went back and read the transcript, I recognized that this is a training I will need to repeat a few times so that I can practice these skills and learn to be with the emotion without adding to it, running from it, or fighting with it. Life brings joys and sorrows. Both are educational.