Today’s practice focused on taking an interest and investigating challenges that arise in meditation. Perhaps my mind wasn’t ready for the challenges or, more likely, wanted to actively demonstrate some challenges. I had all sorts of thoughts wander through my mind while I was attempting to focus, listen, and learn. Instead when #SharonSalzberg talked about sleepiness, I started yawning. Then I noticed I was cold, and kept yawning.
I usually meditate with my eyes closed, I found I had to open them today as I was yawning so much. I tried to focus on the breath. #SharonSalzberg mentioned “Point your attention right to the beginning of the in breath and the end of it. The beginning of the out breath and the end of it” -which I tried to do. I managed it for the in breath, but by the time of the out breath I was yawning again. I identified my tiredness but am happy to say that I didn’t ‘add on’ to the identification, there was no further labeling of that status. No blaming.
I like the idea that we need to look and investigate ourselves while we meditate and sometimes that won’t be pleasant. I’m hopeful that next time I try this I won’t yawn as much.