Harsh! That word characterizes the tone of my inner voice during today’s, ‘how do you speak to yourself meditation.’ My demeanor could generally be described as kind, but definitely not that voice when it goes astray.
When things are going well, my inner voice rarely will say, “you rock!… you are awesome at this meditation thing,” unless I make a conscious effort to reflect this way. The default-mode of my voice is critical. It lets me know when I am not meeting expectations. (though… it is also an agent for self-correction and improvement.)
Through these meditations, I am beginning to realize the impact and lasting effects this voice has on my outward mood and relations, especially if allowed to dwell for too long.
I suppose I will still have the angel devil discussions, but will no longer be the puppet.