Waffling Compassion

Maybe I am missing something in today’s ‘meditation on compassion.’ I can fully acknowledge and accept difficult emotions as a quality of being human that arises out of our control. I can recognize these painful states as suffering in others and myself and do feel strong compassion (sometimes to the point of burnout). I do not consider these emotions as inherently bad or wrong. (for that matter, when I *feel* angry, I do not feel shamed by it. On the contrary… I can feel a touch of righteousness.)

I struggle accepting *unskillful reaction* to these difficult emotions. I can get hung up in an angry or anxious mood, and not be able to let go easily. I can get frustrated when I or someone else loses control of their emotions (unless a justifiable cause is obvious). When this happens, I can become impatient and my compassion diminishes as anger may begin to take hold. It is more about how I (others) choose to react and what I (others) do, instead of how I may actually feel.

Perhaps I am separating what could be joined (feeling and response) and allow compassion to remain consistent. This quite possibly could be what is takes to not allow those negative states to grow.


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May all beings be happy ♡